Monday, December 5, 2011

Evaluative Conclusion... Goodbye to Both My National and International Friends


Another semester at BYU has come and gone, but this time I have a blog of entries that document my experiences here for Fall 2011. Because of this blog, I have realized some things about myself that will help me continue education and progression throughout my life:

1. The first main purpose of this blog only occurred to me now that I have reviewed my posts. Although almost every single one of my posts started out with me explaining some kind of secular problem or experience that I was facing in my life, somehow I always related it to a spiritual lesson I learned. Because I having been preparing to submit my mission papers throughout most of this semester, a lot of my focus has been in this area. I'm grateful that I had the opportunity to express lessons, blessings, and realizations I've had throughout the semester pertaining to this significant time in my life. I can't say enough how grateful I am that I happened to take this class at such a perfect time. Had I taken it next semester, I may not have been able to prepare for my mission as much as I did this semester.

2. Sharing the gospel and my small testimony has also seemed very important and reoccurring throughout most of my posts. I find it interesting and fortunate that I got the opportunity to have people from all around the world reading my blog. With 8 different countries reading my blog and about 1/3 of my blog's views coming from Russia alone, I know that it was important that I always related my posts back to the gospel. I didn't realize it until now, but I had been given a special opportunity to share the gospel in a unique way this semester.

3. I used to write in my journal every week on Sunday. Since the beginning of my senior year, I seemed to think that I had become too busy to be able to write in my journal. Unfortunately, I have missed out on several opportunities to be able to document all the experiences that I have had in the last 2 years. Because of this semester, I have realized that I really do have time to write in my journal. I have a renewed interest in doing so because I was often able to write on my blog more than twice a week.

4. A final thing that I've learned this semester because of my blog pertains to my character. At the beginning of the semester, I made a goal to write on my blog every Tuesday and Thursday. As soon as I had made this goal, I stuck to it. Now that the semester is over, I am proud to say that I have 30 posts on my blog, 10 more than was required. Not only did I keep my promise and obtain my goal of an average of 2 posts a week, I have really come to enjoy this new form of expressing myself.

Although most of my Writing class didn't actually work on keeping up with their blog throughout the semester and ended up posting an absurd amount in the last week, I'm grateful that I have spaced it out because I have been able to see a real progression throughout the semester. Even though I am not the professor and have no say in grades, I feel that I have done all that I could to make this blog a real goal and continuing task throughout this semester. THANK YOU SISTER STEADMAN!!!!! I'VE BEEN CONVERTED TO BLOGGING!!

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Finals!! Get at ME!!!


With the upcoming finals that just seem to linger intimidatingly in the near future, I've begun to realize just how much there is to deal with. I have always taken pride in scheduling out every week and making sure that everything, inside out outside of school, are always taken care of, but given that these next two weeks are going to be really stressful, planning out everything was extremely hard. I'm proud to say now though that my I have everything planned out for the rest of the semester. With different scheduled final test taking times, review sessions, assignments due, and mission papers preparation, it's an understatement to say that I'm stressed out.

For my mission, I got my shots yesterday so now all I have left is the interview with the Bishop and the Stake President. It's hard to believe that I'll have my mission call in just over a month!! On top of that, it always surprises me when I realize that I could be on my mission in 5 months... Time has flown by faster than I thought it would and the mission will be on my doorstep sooner than I expect. I think it's safe to say that I really need to start preparing more now that it is getting so close. I read my scriptures every night but I want to start putting a focus on studying from Preach My Gospel.

Although finals are typically a time to stress and I'm definitely getting my fair share of stress, I'm the type of person that loves a challenge. Because I will need to study for a long amount of time to be able to pull off the grades that I want in each of my classes, I'm excited for this challenge that I have. I know it's going to take a lot of work and studying to be able to pull off what I want but I know that once it's all said and done and I've achieved what I'm working for, it will all be worth it. Good luck to everyone on their finals!!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Blogs.... A Type of Journal?


At the beginning of this semester when we were given the task of keeping up with a blog, I never thought that I'd be able to consistently post something. In order to make sure that I would have enough posts by the end of the semester, I decided that I would blog Tuesday and Wednesday every week. At first, I thought that this was an unrealistic goal and there was no way that I would be able to keep up with it. As I continued through the semester, blogging became easier and it didn't seem like I was having to search as hard to find something to talk about. Thankfully, I have successfully made it through the semester and have learned a very important lesson. With the task of blogging, I thought it would be a complete waste of time, but I now understand how it has helped me. Regardless of whether I keep up with this blog in the future, I know now the importance of writing my thoughts down. A way that I can do this every week is to keep a journal. I'm sorry to say that I currently own 2 journals and use neither of them at all. I used to be much better about keeping a journal but since coming up here, I couldn't find the time to do it. If there's anything that I've learned from blogging, it's that I really do have the time; I just need to make writing in my journal a priority. I have a lot of spiritual experiences every week that I should be writing down to make sure that I can always remember them. Not only is writing in my journal just like blogging, I can also be more personal with what I say because I know I won't have other people reading it (like someone may be reading this right now). Overall, I'm very thankful for this opportunity to blog because it has taught me a great lesson and has motivated me to keep up with my journal after my Writing 150 class is over.

Inspiration


Throughout school this year, I have had many opportunities to reflect on what has kept me motivated. My education goals are to get into the Accounting program here at BYU. Knowing that my dad also went through the Accounting program here, I have tried extra hard this entire semester to do all that I can to be just like him. He has set a high standard for me to follow. Seeing as the Accounting program is now the second best in the U.S., I know it's going to take a lot of work to get into it. My dad has not only been an example to me throughout my life of achieving excellence in school, but he also has great knowledge and logic when it comes to life problems. I would have hated to admit this less than a year ago, but now that I have experienced BYU on my own, I understand where he comes from when he says what he says.
Another inspiration that has kept me motivated this week is a quote that has been on my wall. It says, "running is a big question mark that's there every day. It asks, 'are you going to be a wimp or are you going to be strong today?'" This semester I had decided that I would run a marathon. I have trained continuously throughout the semester so that I could stay healthy while up here at BYU, but nothing has kept me going more than this simple quote. I would wake up early in the morning, question whether it was worth running, look at the quote, and then reluctantly put on my running gear. Now that the semester is almost over, I can't say enough how much I appreciated and needed this quote as help.
Lastly, there has been one other inspiration for me. You have probably been wondering why there is a picture of Emma Watson (or Hermoine Granger as some of you may know her) on this blog post. Well, Emma Watson has been a symbol of standards and morality to me recently. Although she isn't Mormon and she is a celebrity, she still places importance on dressing modestly and staying clean. And besides, she's cute!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Personal Narrative (Final Copy) -- Snow, Seatbelts, and Safety

Snow, Seatbelts, and Safety

Speeding down the highway, snow whipped past our car as we drove home away from Grandma’s house in Oregon. As we escaped the biting cold of the winter, our warm car provided a feeling that we were more accustomed to: the heat of Texas, our home. When it comes to vacations, my family was never much of the driving type; we preferred to travel comfortably by airplane, but only business class. But this time my parents, my 3 older brothers, my older sister, and I were crammed into our small van, and any open space we would have had was filled with luggage and presents from Christmas. Trying to obtain just a little extra room, all of us had taken off our seat belts. It’s not much of a surprise that everyone was annoyed with each other and attitudes were getting out of hand. Just as any other family, tempers and arguing seemed to take hold until Mom decided she had had enough. Wearing her quirky, red holiday sweater that was nothing short of tacky, she frantically waved her arms above her dirty-blonde hair, exclaiming, “kids! Just stop arguing! Turn on a movie and be quiet!” Fortunately, our car had a built-in TV so we each put on our wireless headsets and tuned each other out. “And Roark, you need to slow down. It’s dangerous on these roads.”

“Honey, we’ll be fine. We’ve got a schedule to keep.” One thing that’s important to know about my dad: he’s stubborn, ridiculously stubborn. Once he has his mind set on something, he’s not changing. You wouldn’t even need to personally know him and you’d still be able to assume he’s stubborn—his scraggly, brown beard and stern expression just about sum up his personality: unyielding. So given the weather outside, no seat belts, and Dad’s stubbornness, it’s safe to say that our family was far from safe.

Things seemed to settle down nicely as we all watched Emperor’s New Groove. My wireless headset was uncomfortably tight on my ears so I pulled it off to adjust it. Once my headset was off, tuning everyone else out was hard and I couldn’t help but listen to what my mom was saying to my dad. “Roark, you really need to slow down. Look outside, it’s not safe.” Gazing out the window, I noticed that the snow had picked up and our car was now drowning in a sea of swirling white flakes.

“Sweetheart, I’m telling you,” my dad expressed in a hushed tone, “it’s not that icy outside.” My dad’s confidence worried me. Coming from Texas, I didn’t feel comfortable driving at this speed through a blizzard. I don’t like to interject when my dad and mom are arguing, but I couldn’t help it. I was scared.

“Dad, I really think you should slow down. I can’t see further than 10 feet in front of the car,” I added.

“It’s alright. I can drive through snow,” my dad reassured me. “Nothing’s going to happen. Go back to watching the movie.” Knowing that there was nothing I could say that would change my dad’s mind, I put my adjusted headphones back over my ears and once again escaped to my own world.

“Roark! Roark! Roark!” My mom’s screeches broke through my headset, pulling me out of my world and back into the car. Looking outside, there was no road, and trees were directly in front of us. That’s weird, I thought. Why are we driving towards trees? Then I realized it, we were sliding sideways down the highway. The car kept turning until we were drifting backwards, facing the wrong way. In a frantic effort to get the car back to going straight, my dad whipped the other way on the wheel. The car spun all the way back around; it worked! Only too well though, as the car spun to the side again, but this time throwing us off the road. We tumbled down a small hill, only to get thrown up the other side of a bank. With so much momentum, our car barrel rolled up the bank until gravity pulled us back down, twisting us to a stop on our side. Because we hadn’t been wearing seat belts, we immediately crawled out of broken windows, and our family gathered on the side of the road. As we got out of the car my mom would grab each of us individually, asking, “are you alright?” Everyone was fine but no matter what response we gave her, she kept repeating, “oh, it’s because you’re in shock! You don’t know if you’re alright.”

As we waited for roadside assistance to show up, we began to walk around the car to see the damage that had incurred. Walking to the side that I had been sitting on, I found my headset buried in the snow with the ear covers disconnected, barely held together by the inside’s flimsy wires. This headset had been situated on my head before we began to tumble up and down the bank. Next thing I knew, it had been ripped off my head by the window’s broken glass. Within a few minutes, roadside assistance showed up and asked how we were feeling. “Lucky for you guys, I see accidents like these every day. Let’s get you guys somewhere where you can stay the night.” We piled into his large, white car as he took us to a small town called Willowpoke about 15 minutes away.

Climbing out of the roadside assistance’s car, we stopped outside the car door and stared at the run-down motel we would be staying in for the night. My dad sprinted off to the reception desk to get us a room; well… I say he sprinted because he was putting in the same effort that it takes to sprint. To be honest, he had more of a nice jog, which was still the fastest I’ve ever seen him move. Standing in the freezing wind in just a short sleeve shirt and no coat on to keep away the cold, I was surprisingly warm. Noticing that my coat had been left back with the car, my mom was worried about me. “Oh, dear! Where is your coat? You’re probably freezing…”

“Nah, I’m good,” I responded nonchalantly.

“Oh my gosh! You’re still in shock! You can’t feel anything! You don’t know if you’re alright! You’ve probably got a bad cut somewhere and you’re bleeding to death! We need to…”

“Mom,” I interrupted, “I’m fine. Really.”

Finally, my dad came jogging back—not nearly fast enough. We walked into our motel room and I immediately called “first shower,” much to the dismay of my siblings. As I washed my body, a dirt stream seemed to flow continuously down my legs and into the drain; I had no idea I had gotten so much dirt from the accident. Inspecting my body for any cuts or major problems, I found that my mom couldn’t have been any further from wrong. I had maybe three scratches on my hand—the kind of scratches that a 2 year-old comes running into the house for, crying to mommy that they need a Band-Aid. I couldn’t have been any luckier; not wearing a seat belt was a stupid mistake.

“Alright, everybody out of the house. I’m setting the alarm,” my dad yelled down the hall. Grabbing our suitcases, our family pushed out the door of our home and loaded our baggage into the yellow taxi waiting outside. We were headed to Grandma’s house in Oregon again, but this time by flying. It took some persuading from my mom, but Dad finally gave in unexpectedly and agreed that we wouldn’t drive there like last Christmas. Situating ourselves into the taxi, Mom buckled her seatbelt in the captain seat and then turned around, checking to make sure that we had all done the same. Recognizing what my mom was looking for, I pointed down at my seatbelt and smiled at her.

“Mom, you don’t need to worry about me… I haven’t missed one day of putting on my seatbelt since the accident—and I don’t think I ever will.”

Personal Narrative

Speeding down the highway, snow whipped past our car as we drove home away from Grandma’s house in Oregon. As we escaped the biting cold of the winter, our warm car provided a feeling that we were more accustomed to: the heat of Texas, our home. When it comes to vacations, my family was never much of the driving type; we preferred to travel comfortably by airplane, but only business class. But this time my parents, my 3 older brothers, my older sister, and I were crammed into our small van, and any open space we would have had was filled with luggage and presents from Christmas. Trying to obtain just a little extra room, all of us had taken off our seat belts. It’s not much of a surprise that everyone was annoyed with each other and attitudes were getting out of hand. Just as any other family, tempers and arguing seemed to take hold until mom decided she had had enough. “Kids! Just stop arguing! Turn on a movie and be quiet!” Fortunately, our car had a built-in TV so we each put on our wireless headsets and tuned each other out. “And Roark, you need to slow down. It’s dangerous on these roads.”

“Honey, we’ll be fine. We’ve got a schedule to keep.” One thing that’s important to know about my dad: he’s stubborn, ridiculously stubborn. Once he has his mind set on something, he’s not changing. So given the weather outside, no seat belts, and Dad’s stubbornness, it’s safe to say that our family was far from safe.

Things seemed to settle down nicely as we all watched Emperor’s New Groove. My wireless headset was uncomfortably tight on my ears so I pulled it off to adjust it. Once my headset was off, tuning everyone else out was hard and I couldn’t help but listen to what my mom was saying to my dad. “Roark, you really need to slow down. Look outside, it’s not safe.” Gazing out the window, I noticed that the snow had picked up and our car was now drowning in a sea of swirling white flakes.

“Sweetheart, I’m telling you,” my dad expressed in a hushed tone, “it’s not that icy outside.” My dad’s confidence worried me. Coming from Texas, I didn’t feel comfortable driving at this speed through a blizzard. I don’t like to interject when my dad and mom are arguing, but I couldn’t help it. I was scared.

“Dad, I really think you should slow down. I can’t see further than 10 feet in front of the car,” I added.

“It’s alright. I can drive through snow,” my dad reassured me. “Nothing’s going to happen. Go back to watching the movie.” Knowing that there was nothing I could say that would change my dad’s mind, I put my adjusted headphones back over my ears and once again escaped to my own world.

“Roark! Roark! Roark!” My mom’s screeches broke through my headset, pulling me out of my world and back into the car. Looking outside, there was no road and trees, were directly in front of us. “That’s weird,” I thought. “Why are driving towards trees?” Then I realized it, we were sliding sideways down the highway. The car kept turning until we were drifting backwards, facing the wrong way. In a frantic effort to get the car back to going straight, my dad whipped the other way on the wheel. The car spun all the way back around; it worked! Only too well though, as the car spun to the side again, but this time throwing us off the road. We tumbled down a small hill, only to get thrown up the other side of a bank. With so much momentum, our car barrel rolled up the bank until gravity pulled us back down, twisting us to a stop on our side. Because we hadn’t been wearing seat belts, we immediately crawled out of broken windows, and our family gathered on the side of the road. As we got out of the car my mom would grab each of us individually, asking, “are you alright?” Everyone was fine but no matter what response we gave her, she kept repeating, “oh, it’s because you’re in shock! You don’t know if you’re alright.”

As we waited for roadside assistance to show up, we began to walk around the car to see the damage that had incurred. Walking to the side that I had been sitting on, I found my headset buried in the snow with the ear covers disconnected, barely held together by the inside’s flimsy wires. This headset had been situated on my head before we began to tumble up and down the bank. Next thing I knew, it had been ripped off my head by the window’s broken glass. Within a few minutes, roadside assistance showed up and asked how we were feeling. “Lucky for you guys, I see accidents like these every day. Let’s get you guys somewhere where you can stay the night.” We piled into his large car as he took us to a small town called Willowpoke about 15 minutes away.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Thanksgiving Break

After a long and gruesome semester, I have finally had a break. Although the semester isn't over quite yet, it is safe to say that this break may have been the only thing that is really keeping me going. I used to live in Dallas but when I moved up to Utah to come to BYU, my parents decided to move up here also. We currently have our house being built in South Jordan, near Salt Lake City. Although I didn't get the chance to go back to Dallas to see all of my high school friends for maybe the last time ever, it was nice being able to see my family and a little weird to call Utah my home. With all of the school work that I have been forcing myself through these last few weeks, my brain was fried, and I couldn't have thought of any better way to relax than to spend some time with my family. Thinking on all of the great times that I've had with my family has really made me realize the amount of time I have left before I'll be gone on a mission. A mission is a wonderful opportunity that I have as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints to spread the gospel and share the love of Jesus Christ with all of Heavenly Father's children. With the passing of this Thanksgiving, I will not be able to spend another Thanksgiving with my family for another 3 years. On top of that, I know that this Christmas will be the last time that I am able to spend that holiday with my family for 3 years also. Although this can be very sad to think about, I can't express how thankful I am for such a loving family and all of the great experiences I've had with them. The only thing I am able to say is that I am grateful for all of the blessings that are daily evident in my life. I know that my Heavenly Father loves me and that as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day saints, I have the opportunity to share His gospel and help others understand His love for them also.