Monday, December 5, 2011

Evaluative Conclusion... Goodbye to Both My National and International Friends


Another semester at BYU has come and gone, but this time I have a blog of entries that document my experiences here for Fall 2011. Because of this blog, I have realized some things about myself that will help me continue education and progression throughout my life:

1. The first main purpose of this blog only occurred to me now that I have reviewed my posts. Although almost every single one of my posts started out with me explaining some kind of secular problem or experience that I was facing in my life, somehow I always related it to a spiritual lesson I learned. Because I having been preparing to submit my mission papers throughout most of this semester, a lot of my focus has been in this area. I'm grateful that I had the opportunity to express lessons, blessings, and realizations I've had throughout the semester pertaining to this significant time in my life. I can't say enough how grateful I am that I happened to take this class at such a perfect time. Had I taken it next semester, I may not have been able to prepare for my mission as much as I did this semester.

2. Sharing the gospel and my small testimony has also seemed very important and reoccurring throughout most of my posts. I find it interesting and fortunate that I got the opportunity to have people from all around the world reading my blog. With 8 different countries reading my blog and about 1/3 of my blog's views coming from Russia alone, I know that it was important that I always related my posts back to the gospel. I didn't realize it until now, but I had been given a special opportunity to share the gospel in a unique way this semester.

3. I used to write in my journal every week on Sunday. Since the beginning of my senior year, I seemed to think that I had become too busy to be able to write in my journal. Unfortunately, I have missed out on several opportunities to be able to document all the experiences that I have had in the last 2 years. Because of this semester, I have realized that I really do have time to write in my journal. I have a renewed interest in doing so because I was often able to write on my blog more than twice a week.

4. A final thing that I've learned this semester because of my blog pertains to my character. At the beginning of the semester, I made a goal to write on my blog every Tuesday and Thursday. As soon as I had made this goal, I stuck to it. Now that the semester is over, I am proud to say that I have 30 posts on my blog, 10 more than was required. Not only did I keep my promise and obtain my goal of an average of 2 posts a week, I have really come to enjoy this new form of expressing myself.

Although most of my Writing class didn't actually work on keeping up with their blog throughout the semester and ended up posting an absurd amount in the last week, I'm grateful that I have spaced it out because I have been able to see a real progression throughout the semester. Even though I am not the professor and have no say in grades, I feel that I have done all that I could to make this blog a real goal and continuing task throughout this semester. THANK YOU SISTER STEADMAN!!!!! I'VE BEEN CONVERTED TO BLOGGING!!

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Finals!! Get at ME!!!


With the upcoming finals that just seem to linger intimidatingly in the near future, I've begun to realize just how much there is to deal with. I have always taken pride in scheduling out every week and making sure that everything, inside out outside of school, are always taken care of, but given that these next two weeks are going to be really stressful, planning out everything was extremely hard. I'm proud to say now though that my I have everything planned out for the rest of the semester. With different scheduled final test taking times, review sessions, assignments due, and mission papers preparation, it's an understatement to say that I'm stressed out.

For my mission, I got my shots yesterday so now all I have left is the interview with the Bishop and the Stake President. It's hard to believe that I'll have my mission call in just over a month!! On top of that, it always surprises me when I realize that I could be on my mission in 5 months... Time has flown by faster than I thought it would and the mission will be on my doorstep sooner than I expect. I think it's safe to say that I really need to start preparing more now that it is getting so close. I read my scriptures every night but I want to start putting a focus on studying from Preach My Gospel.

Although finals are typically a time to stress and I'm definitely getting my fair share of stress, I'm the type of person that loves a challenge. Because I will need to study for a long amount of time to be able to pull off the grades that I want in each of my classes, I'm excited for this challenge that I have. I know it's going to take a lot of work and studying to be able to pull off what I want but I know that once it's all said and done and I've achieved what I'm working for, it will all be worth it. Good luck to everyone on their finals!!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Blogs.... A Type of Journal?


At the beginning of this semester when we were given the task of keeping up with a blog, I never thought that I'd be able to consistently post something. In order to make sure that I would have enough posts by the end of the semester, I decided that I would blog Tuesday and Wednesday every week. At first, I thought that this was an unrealistic goal and there was no way that I would be able to keep up with it. As I continued through the semester, blogging became easier and it didn't seem like I was having to search as hard to find something to talk about. Thankfully, I have successfully made it through the semester and have learned a very important lesson. With the task of blogging, I thought it would be a complete waste of time, but I now understand how it has helped me. Regardless of whether I keep up with this blog in the future, I know now the importance of writing my thoughts down. A way that I can do this every week is to keep a journal. I'm sorry to say that I currently own 2 journals and use neither of them at all. I used to be much better about keeping a journal but since coming up here, I couldn't find the time to do it. If there's anything that I've learned from blogging, it's that I really do have the time; I just need to make writing in my journal a priority. I have a lot of spiritual experiences every week that I should be writing down to make sure that I can always remember them. Not only is writing in my journal just like blogging, I can also be more personal with what I say because I know I won't have other people reading it (like someone may be reading this right now). Overall, I'm very thankful for this opportunity to blog because it has taught me a great lesson and has motivated me to keep up with my journal after my Writing 150 class is over.

Inspiration


Throughout school this year, I have had many opportunities to reflect on what has kept me motivated. My education goals are to get into the Accounting program here at BYU. Knowing that my dad also went through the Accounting program here, I have tried extra hard this entire semester to do all that I can to be just like him. He has set a high standard for me to follow. Seeing as the Accounting program is now the second best in the U.S., I know it's going to take a lot of work to get into it. My dad has not only been an example to me throughout my life of achieving excellence in school, but he also has great knowledge and logic when it comes to life problems. I would have hated to admit this less than a year ago, but now that I have experienced BYU on my own, I understand where he comes from when he says what he says.
Another inspiration that has kept me motivated this week is a quote that has been on my wall. It says, "running is a big question mark that's there every day. It asks, 'are you going to be a wimp or are you going to be strong today?'" This semester I had decided that I would run a marathon. I have trained continuously throughout the semester so that I could stay healthy while up here at BYU, but nothing has kept me going more than this simple quote. I would wake up early in the morning, question whether it was worth running, look at the quote, and then reluctantly put on my running gear. Now that the semester is almost over, I can't say enough how much I appreciated and needed this quote as help.
Lastly, there has been one other inspiration for me. You have probably been wondering why there is a picture of Emma Watson (or Hermoine Granger as some of you may know her) on this blog post. Well, Emma Watson has been a symbol of standards and morality to me recently. Although she isn't Mormon and she is a celebrity, she still places importance on dressing modestly and staying clean. And besides, she's cute!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Personal Narrative (Final Copy) -- Snow, Seatbelts, and Safety

Snow, Seatbelts, and Safety

Speeding down the highway, snow whipped past our car as we drove home away from Grandma’s house in Oregon. As we escaped the biting cold of the winter, our warm car provided a feeling that we were more accustomed to: the heat of Texas, our home. When it comes to vacations, my family was never much of the driving type; we preferred to travel comfortably by airplane, but only business class. But this time my parents, my 3 older brothers, my older sister, and I were crammed into our small van, and any open space we would have had was filled with luggage and presents from Christmas. Trying to obtain just a little extra room, all of us had taken off our seat belts. It’s not much of a surprise that everyone was annoyed with each other and attitudes were getting out of hand. Just as any other family, tempers and arguing seemed to take hold until Mom decided she had had enough. Wearing her quirky, red holiday sweater that was nothing short of tacky, she frantically waved her arms above her dirty-blonde hair, exclaiming, “kids! Just stop arguing! Turn on a movie and be quiet!” Fortunately, our car had a built-in TV so we each put on our wireless headsets and tuned each other out. “And Roark, you need to slow down. It’s dangerous on these roads.”

“Honey, we’ll be fine. We’ve got a schedule to keep.” One thing that’s important to know about my dad: he’s stubborn, ridiculously stubborn. Once he has his mind set on something, he’s not changing. You wouldn’t even need to personally know him and you’d still be able to assume he’s stubborn—his scraggly, brown beard and stern expression just about sum up his personality: unyielding. So given the weather outside, no seat belts, and Dad’s stubbornness, it’s safe to say that our family was far from safe.

Things seemed to settle down nicely as we all watched Emperor’s New Groove. My wireless headset was uncomfortably tight on my ears so I pulled it off to adjust it. Once my headset was off, tuning everyone else out was hard and I couldn’t help but listen to what my mom was saying to my dad. “Roark, you really need to slow down. Look outside, it’s not safe.” Gazing out the window, I noticed that the snow had picked up and our car was now drowning in a sea of swirling white flakes.

“Sweetheart, I’m telling you,” my dad expressed in a hushed tone, “it’s not that icy outside.” My dad’s confidence worried me. Coming from Texas, I didn’t feel comfortable driving at this speed through a blizzard. I don’t like to interject when my dad and mom are arguing, but I couldn’t help it. I was scared.

“Dad, I really think you should slow down. I can’t see further than 10 feet in front of the car,” I added.

“It’s alright. I can drive through snow,” my dad reassured me. “Nothing’s going to happen. Go back to watching the movie.” Knowing that there was nothing I could say that would change my dad’s mind, I put my adjusted headphones back over my ears and once again escaped to my own world.

“Roark! Roark! Roark!” My mom’s screeches broke through my headset, pulling me out of my world and back into the car. Looking outside, there was no road, and trees were directly in front of us. That’s weird, I thought. Why are we driving towards trees? Then I realized it, we were sliding sideways down the highway. The car kept turning until we were drifting backwards, facing the wrong way. In a frantic effort to get the car back to going straight, my dad whipped the other way on the wheel. The car spun all the way back around; it worked! Only too well though, as the car spun to the side again, but this time throwing us off the road. We tumbled down a small hill, only to get thrown up the other side of a bank. With so much momentum, our car barrel rolled up the bank until gravity pulled us back down, twisting us to a stop on our side. Because we hadn’t been wearing seat belts, we immediately crawled out of broken windows, and our family gathered on the side of the road. As we got out of the car my mom would grab each of us individually, asking, “are you alright?” Everyone was fine but no matter what response we gave her, she kept repeating, “oh, it’s because you’re in shock! You don’t know if you’re alright.”

As we waited for roadside assistance to show up, we began to walk around the car to see the damage that had incurred. Walking to the side that I had been sitting on, I found my headset buried in the snow with the ear covers disconnected, barely held together by the inside’s flimsy wires. This headset had been situated on my head before we began to tumble up and down the bank. Next thing I knew, it had been ripped off my head by the window’s broken glass. Within a few minutes, roadside assistance showed up and asked how we were feeling. “Lucky for you guys, I see accidents like these every day. Let’s get you guys somewhere where you can stay the night.” We piled into his large, white car as he took us to a small town called Willowpoke about 15 minutes away.

Climbing out of the roadside assistance’s car, we stopped outside the car door and stared at the run-down motel we would be staying in for the night. My dad sprinted off to the reception desk to get us a room; well… I say he sprinted because he was putting in the same effort that it takes to sprint. To be honest, he had more of a nice jog, which was still the fastest I’ve ever seen him move. Standing in the freezing wind in just a short sleeve shirt and no coat on to keep away the cold, I was surprisingly warm. Noticing that my coat had been left back with the car, my mom was worried about me. “Oh, dear! Where is your coat? You’re probably freezing…”

“Nah, I’m good,” I responded nonchalantly.

“Oh my gosh! You’re still in shock! You can’t feel anything! You don’t know if you’re alright! You’ve probably got a bad cut somewhere and you’re bleeding to death! We need to…”

“Mom,” I interrupted, “I’m fine. Really.”

Finally, my dad came jogging back—not nearly fast enough. We walked into our motel room and I immediately called “first shower,” much to the dismay of my siblings. As I washed my body, a dirt stream seemed to flow continuously down my legs and into the drain; I had no idea I had gotten so much dirt from the accident. Inspecting my body for any cuts or major problems, I found that my mom couldn’t have been any further from wrong. I had maybe three scratches on my hand—the kind of scratches that a 2 year-old comes running into the house for, crying to mommy that they need a Band-Aid. I couldn’t have been any luckier; not wearing a seat belt was a stupid mistake.

“Alright, everybody out of the house. I’m setting the alarm,” my dad yelled down the hall. Grabbing our suitcases, our family pushed out the door of our home and loaded our baggage into the yellow taxi waiting outside. We were headed to Grandma’s house in Oregon again, but this time by flying. It took some persuading from my mom, but Dad finally gave in unexpectedly and agreed that we wouldn’t drive there like last Christmas. Situating ourselves into the taxi, Mom buckled her seatbelt in the captain seat and then turned around, checking to make sure that we had all done the same. Recognizing what my mom was looking for, I pointed down at my seatbelt and smiled at her.

“Mom, you don’t need to worry about me… I haven’t missed one day of putting on my seatbelt since the accident—and I don’t think I ever will.”

Personal Narrative

Speeding down the highway, snow whipped past our car as we drove home away from Grandma’s house in Oregon. As we escaped the biting cold of the winter, our warm car provided a feeling that we were more accustomed to: the heat of Texas, our home. When it comes to vacations, my family was never much of the driving type; we preferred to travel comfortably by airplane, but only business class. But this time my parents, my 3 older brothers, my older sister, and I were crammed into our small van, and any open space we would have had was filled with luggage and presents from Christmas. Trying to obtain just a little extra room, all of us had taken off our seat belts. It’s not much of a surprise that everyone was annoyed with each other and attitudes were getting out of hand. Just as any other family, tempers and arguing seemed to take hold until mom decided she had had enough. “Kids! Just stop arguing! Turn on a movie and be quiet!” Fortunately, our car had a built-in TV so we each put on our wireless headsets and tuned each other out. “And Roark, you need to slow down. It’s dangerous on these roads.”

“Honey, we’ll be fine. We’ve got a schedule to keep.” One thing that’s important to know about my dad: he’s stubborn, ridiculously stubborn. Once he has his mind set on something, he’s not changing. So given the weather outside, no seat belts, and Dad’s stubbornness, it’s safe to say that our family was far from safe.

Things seemed to settle down nicely as we all watched Emperor’s New Groove. My wireless headset was uncomfortably tight on my ears so I pulled it off to adjust it. Once my headset was off, tuning everyone else out was hard and I couldn’t help but listen to what my mom was saying to my dad. “Roark, you really need to slow down. Look outside, it’s not safe.” Gazing out the window, I noticed that the snow had picked up and our car was now drowning in a sea of swirling white flakes.

“Sweetheart, I’m telling you,” my dad expressed in a hushed tone, “it’s not that icy outside.” My dad’s confidence worried me. Coming from Texas, I didn’t feel comfortable driving at this speed through a blizzard. I don’t like to interject when my dad and mom are arguing, but I couldn’t help it. I was scared.

“Dad, I really think you should slow down. I can’t see further than 10 feet in front of the car,” I added.

“It’s alright. I can drive through snow,” my dad reassured me. “Nothing’s going to happen. Go back to watching the movie.” Knowing that there was nothing I could say that would change my dad’s mind, I put my adjusted headphones back over my ears and once again escaped to my own world.

“Roark! Roark! Roark!” My mom’s screeches broke through my headset, pulling me out of my world and back into the car. Looking outside, there was no road and trees, were directly in front of us. “That’s weird,” I thought. “Why are driving towards trees?” Then I realized it, we were sliding sideways down the highway. The car kept turning until we were drifting backwards, facing the wrong way. In a frantic effort to get the car back to going straight, my dad whipped the other way on the wheel. The car spun all the way back around; it worked! Only too well though, as the car spun to the side again, but this time throwing us off the road. We tumbled down a small hill, only to get thrown up the other side of a bank. With so much momentum, our car barrel rolled up the bank until gravity pulled us back down, twisting us to a stop on our side. Because we hadn’t been wearing seat belts, we immediately crawled out of broken windows, and our family gathered on the side of the road. As we got out of the car my mom would grab each of us individually, asking, “are you alright?” Everyone was fine but no matter what response we gave her, she kept repeating, “oh, it’s because you’re in shock! You don’t know if you’re alright.”

As we waited for roadside assistance to show up, we began to walk around the car to see the damage that had incurred. Walking to the side that I had been sitting on, I found my headset buried in the snow with the ear covers disconnected, barely held together by the inside’s flimsy wires. This headset had been situated on my head before we began to tumble up and down the bank. Next thing I knew, it had been ripped off my head by the window’s broken glass. Within a few minutes, roadside assistance showed up and asked how we were feeling. “Lucky for you guys, I see accidents like these every day. Let’s get you guys somewhere where you can stay the night.” We piled into his large car as he took us to a small town called Willowpoke about 15 minutes away.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Thanksgiving Break

After a long and gruesome semester, I have finally had a break. Although the semester isn't over quite yet, it is safe to say that this break may have been the only thing that is really keeping me going. I used to live in Dallas but when I moved up to Utah to come to BYU, my parents decided to move up here also. We currently have our house being built in South Jordan, near Salt Lake City. Although I didn't get the chance to go back to Dallas to see all of my high school friends for maybe the last time ever, it was nice being able to see my family and a little weird to call Utah my home. With all of the school work that I have been forcing myself through these last few weeks, my brain was fried, and I couldn't have thought of any better way to relax than to spend some time with my family. Thinking on all of the great times that I've had with my family has really made me realize the amount of time I have left before I'll be gone on a mission. A mission is a wonderful opportunity that I have as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints to spread the gospel and share the love of Jesus Christ with all of Heavenly Father's children. With the passing of this Thanksgiving, I will not be able to spend another Thanksgiving with my family for another 3 years. On top of that, I know that this Christmas will be the last time that I am able to spend that holiday with my family for 3 years also. Although this can be very sad to think about, I can't express how thankful I am for such a loving family and all of the great experiences I've had with them. The only thing I am able to say is that I am grateful for all of the blessings that are daily evident in my life. I know that my Heavenly Father loves me and that as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day saints, I have the opportunity to share His gospel and help others understand His love for them also.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Trusting in God

As this week has played out and I have made an extra effort to keep up with reading the scriptures and saying my prayers, I have realized some amazing things. In past weeks, my Calculus tests have been getting the better of me. As I stress over how I can prepare for them, I've found that my scripture reading and daily prayer has really slacked. With this realization, I decided that this week I would take the time out of my studying to make sure that I read the scriptures and pray. As I have made the extra effort to do so, I know that it has become easier for me to do well throughout this week. It seems as if I have had more time than I usually would. As I prepared for this next Calculus test, I also promised myself that I would say a prayer before taking it. After saying a prayer, I started the test, believing that I would be able to remember all of the things that I had studied. I'm pleased to say that I have seen a miracle in my life. I remembered everything and will easily get the grade that I need on this test. After all is said and done though, it was not because of me that I have done well on this test. I may have put in the effort to study for it, but God is ultimately the one that has made it possible for me to do well. From this experience, I have learned my lesson that I must trust in God and do my best to not forget him, no matter how stressful my week may become.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

HERE IT COMES!!!!!

With all of the stress I dealt with last week, I had a lot of difficulty making sure that I kept up with the spiritual things in my life like reading the scriptures. Looking back on mistakes that I made last week, I am ready to tackle this week with more trust in God and his plan for me. Starting with yesterday, I have a goal to not miss one day of reading the scriptures for this week. Although this week isn't quite as stressful as the week before, I still have a lot going and it's going to take some dedication and motivation to make sure that I don't miss out on the blessings that come from reading the scriptures. After this week is over, I should be able to cruse through the semester until finals week. Knowing this helps me stay motivated, especially since part of next week will be Thanksgiving Break. Usually, my family doesn't get to go home for Thanksgiving Break because our home was in Texas and it costs too much to go home for 4 days. This won't be the case for this Thanksgiving Break though because my family moved up to Utah in the last month. Because they now live within 40 minutes of BYU campus, I will be able to spend the holiday and break with them. With this in mind, I will be able to push through this week, focusing mostly on my scripture reading, daily prayer, and spiritual education.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

11:11:11 on 11-11-11

Where were you on this once in a century moment? Seeing as Friday was November 11, 2011, everyone was waiting for when the time hit 11:11 and 11 seconds. Unfortunately, as hard as I tried to be somewhere cool at the exact moment, I was unsuccessful. At 11:11am, I happened to be sitting through a lecture in one of my classes at BYU. And then at 11:11pm, I was waiting in line to get into a dance party; my luck couldn't have been any worse. Although this event and date has nothing at all to do with spiritual aspects of myself I try to progress and prepare for my mission, I thought it was noteworthy enough because it happens only once every century. Even without having anything memorable occur at 11:11 am and pm, I was able to spend my day with my friends. With so many bad influences around us in this world, it's important to have friends that share the same morals as you. If you are persistent enough, getting great friends like the ones I have will come easily. More so than any of the memories I could have gotten from 11-11-11, I will always be able to remember the friends that I was with on this day and the special relationships that I shared with each of them. My advice is to make sure that you appreciate and spend as much time with those friends that share the same standards as you; you'll have much more fun and memorable moments if you do.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

#20... The End of a Stressful Week

What better way is there to end this week than with a blog post? After over 20 hours in the library in just 3 days, my brain is fried. I've had to take two tests and write an 8 page research paper which added another 6 hours to my count. This week has probably been the most stressful week of my entire life. I had a lot on the line as school approaches the week before Thanksgiving Break. Although this next week will be pretty stressful also, it won't be nearly as bad what I have just experienced. This weekend, I plan to just relax and catch back up on sleep. If I'm able to, I'll spend some time to get ahead on the assignments that are due next week. In all that I have going next week, I must keep in mind that my spiritual education is just as important as what I learn in my classes. In order to make sure that I keep progressing spiritually in preparation for my mission, I must ensure that I don't forget to read my scriptures and say my prayers in the morning and at night. If I can make it through this week and successfully attain all of the grades I want in my classes, I will be able to enjoy my Thanksgiving Break that much more. Good luck to all of you that are in the same position I'm in!!

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Stresses of School

This week, school has picked up more than it ever has before. With two tests and a research paper due on Thursday, it seems impossible that I will be able to make it through this week. As the semester begins to approach an end, it is now that I must be extra focused on my school work. The two tests that I have this week are for American Heritage and Physical Science, both of which I know I will need to put an obsessive amount of time studying for. On top of that, my research paper is due Thursday and must be at least 8 pages long. Looking at what this week holds for me, I have already begun to get stressed. It is at times like these where I will really be tested. I know that if I am to make it through this week, I must also take the time to continue my scripture reading. Throughout this semester, I have gained the habit to slack on my diligence in this area because of all the late night studying I have to do. This week though, I have made the goal to not miss one night of studying my scriptures I go to bed. This is very important because I know that it is only through the help of my Heavenly Father that I will be able to successfully receive the grades that I want on the tests for my classes. The lesson that I've learned from the past is that no matter how stressful school gets, I must always make the time to study the scriptures and keep the spirit with me.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Blessings

Every day we are blessed with all sorts of talents, experiences, friendships, and fun. The hardest thing about these blessings is recognizing them. Occasionally, I'll take a step back and look at all of the things that my Heavenly Father has given to me; today was one of those days. Getting a meager 3 hours of sleep, I had to get up at 6am to go running. Thinking that this would be one of the hardest runs of my life, I was hesitant to even get up. Once I got started, I was amazed with the endurance I had. I take no credit any talent I have when it comes to running; I realized today that my Heavenly Father has blessed me with the ability to run for long periods of time. As I train for a marathon I plan on doing in April, I ran 17 miles today and can't thank God enough for the gift he has given me. On top of that, I planned a bike ride down to Utah lake with some friends. In total, the bike ride took 2 hours. Usually I would look at experiences like this I just think that it was fun, but in this specific instance, I couldn't help but feel thankful for the wonderful friends I have made here at BYU. Being in such a positive environment like I have here has really helped me realize just how lucky I am to constantly be surrounded by other college students that have the same morals as me. I know that in the world today, most college students do not have the standards to refrain from habits that will only ruin there lives. Both the gifts I have been blessed with and the friends I have made are true examples of the love my Father has for me. Finally, tomorrow I will have the opportunity to receive my Patriarchal Blessing. I have been waiting for this day for quite a while now and now that it's here, I have really begun to understand its importance. This, along with everything else I have been given, is proof my Heavenly Father loves me.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Pressures of College

With all of the midterms that I've been taking these last few weeks, my life has become extremely stressful. One thing you need to know about me is that I'm very grade oriented so when there's a possibility that I may get anything other than an "A" in a class, I begin to get stress. With several of my classes this semester, I'm sitting on the edge of either getting an "A" or an "A-" and I've started to become obsessive. Although it's not necessarily bad to be so grade oriented, I often think that my obsessive attitude could be detrimental to my success in future years. With applying to the Marriott School of Management at BYU in the future, I began to look at many of the requirements and average statistics for those who are accepted. Through my research, I found that many of those accepted are bilingual and international. I also found that the average GPA for those accepted is about 3.5; knowing this helps me gauge my standing against all of the other students who plan on applying for the Marriott School also. As I continue to plan my future and attempt to secure it in every way possible, determining information such as this will be very beneficial. On a side note, I've learned that planning my future has been very helpful, but at the same time, doing so must be done with care. I recommend that all individuals who know what they want to do in life should take the time to plan out the next few years of their lives and stick to those plans. It's important to make goals throughout our lives so that we know where we want to go.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

President Monson

This week at the regular devotional put on every Tuesday, President Monson was the speaker. The news that President Thomas S. Monson was going to be the speaker was kept quiet until literally the day before he came. Because not very many people had heard anything about who would be the speaker until the day before, the news spread quickly that the Prophet would be speaking. With the sudden spread of the news, many people got excited enough that they camped out. Although I didn't camp out, I arrived an hour early to make sure that I still got some good seats. The place was packed within the 30 minutes before President Thomas S. Monson even entered the building. As soon as he came in, there was a feeling of respect that all of the college students gave to him. Having a living prophet today that helps us and guides us in many ways is such a blessing and having the opportunity to listen to him today is something that I'll never forget. There were many things that he said that really caught my attention and will demand for me to take action in the next few months before my mission. One of the first things that he stated that really caught my attention was that "we are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience." This statement really intrigued me because it helped me realize that I need to focus on the spiritual aspect of my life. Many quotes that I hear throughout my life must be twisted in order for me to get the most out of them, but this quote rang true to me the moment I heard it. Not only are we spiritual beings brought onto this Earth, it is our duty to make sure that we make the most out of our human experiences. An important challenge that President Monson issued to all of us is that we should read Moroni 10:4 and pray to know for ourselves if what we are reading is true. This is something that I've done before and have gained a witness of, but I know that I still have some work to do so accepting this challenge will be a great opportunity for me to grow spiritually. Lastly, President Monson quoted from The Lion King, saying, "Look inside yourself. You are more than what you have become." After hearing this, I knew that I have so much more potential than I realize. Even though I have become a certain way, I will always have the potential to become more and a better person than I currently am. I can't express how thankful I am to have had the opportunity to listen to President Thomas S. Monson in person, directly addressing the students of BYU.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Winter Semester Registration

As Winter Semester approaches, I got the opportunity to register for all of my classes tonight at midnight. Fortunately, I was able to get into every single one except for one. Included in all of the classes that I will be taking, I got into Mission Preparation with Professor Bott. On top of this religion class, I have the opportunity to take a New Testament class with the same professor that I took Book of Mormon from this semester. Looking at my schedule now, I know that I will have plenty of chances to feel the spirit and make the most of my situation here at BYU as I prepare to serve a full-time mission. I will be able to turn in my papers on New Years Day of 2012. Many great things are in store in the next 6 months and I can't wait to see the Lord's hand in my life.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Building the Bib

In my Writing 150 class, I've been working on compiling an annotated bibliography from all the sources that I've found so far for my research paper. I've finished about half of the assignment; as I get closer to finishing, I gain more of an appreciation for an annotated bibliography. At first, I thought it would be worthless, but now that I've annotated about half of my sources, I really understand how important and helpful this step in the process is. Once I've completely annotated each source that I will be using for my research paper, I will be able to write the paper much quicker because the Annotated Bibliography acts as a sort of outline for the rest of my paper.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Atonement

Tomorrow my GQA, or Gospel Question Assignment, is due in my Book of Mormon 122 class here at Brigham Young University. When I first started doing this assignment, I was reluctant because I didn't think it would benefit me in any way at all. I decided to relate my assignment to a very personal experience I had in my life. The major question I wanted to be answered was, "have I repented of my sins properly and have I been completely forgiven?" This question was very personal to me and as I began to answer it, I quickly realized that this assignment would actually be very beneficial to me. The spiritual experience I've had as I completed this assignment was one that I will never forget because the spirit bore witness to me that I have been forgiven. I would like to share some things about what I have learned from this assignment. First of all, we shouldn't attempt to repent of our sins until we are completely ready; God doesn't like to see us repenting of the same sin over and over again. Another thing that I learned is that we do not have to go through the repentance process for small sins. These small sins are referred to as "errors" in the Scriptures, and we are taught that we need to merely mention and acknowledge our mistake or error, and then try to refrain from doing it again. Lastly, when we commit major sins, we must have a broken heart and a contrite spirit in order to truly be forgiven. When I first read that we need a "broken heart and a contrite spirit" in the Scriptures, I was unsure of what that meant. After reading a talk given in General Conference by one of our apostles in the Quorum of the Twelve, I found that having a broken heart and a contrite spirit consists of being completely willing to submit to the will of the Father, whatever it is that he wants done.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

MLA and Annotated Bibliography

In preparation for writing my own annotated bibliography, today in class we discussed how to properly format a bibliography and do in text quotations with MLA format. Although I had already thought I knew everything there was to know about MLA, I found out some interesting things that will help me out as I not only construct the annotated bibliography, but also as I write my research paper. Knowing and understanding these concepts will come in a lot of handy when I want to get an 'A' because I don't mistakes because of MLA to distract from the argument and message of my topic.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

"Testing" the Truthfulness of the Gospel

This week for my Physical Science class, we were told to read a talk given at a devotional here at BYU. The title of the talk was "He Stands at the Door and Knocks," and it was given by Professor Kowallis. My Physical Science professor had told us that this devotional would have an essay question related to it on our next text. As I read the talk, I kept waiting for it to be strictly about science, but I soon found out that it was a combination of both my testimony or spiritual things as well as scientific things. In the talk, Professor Kowallis makes a very strong relation between how we determine things are true in science and how we determine things are true in the gospel. He explains that he had many challenges in his life where the thought occurred to him to "test" the truthfulness of the gospel just as he would the truthfulness of science. Obeying exactly what the scriptures teach, he got on his knees and prayed for an answer. Because of the witnesses he has had throughout his life, he will always believe the truth of the gospel over the believed truths of science. This talk has given me a new perspective on the correlation between science and God. I have always thought of science as a contradicting belief to that of the gospel, but after having read this talk, I now understand that science was given to us to help us understand all of God's creations; the two tie together very closely. When something in science contradicts that of the gospel, I must always rely on the testimony I have.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Research Paper - Effects of Social Media, Electronics, and Gaming on Teens

Today in Writing 150, we met in the library research section for class. Before class began, I couldn't help but feeling like the lecture would be waste because I felt like I already knew how to research things. And even if I didn't know how to use a special BYU academic search engine, how hard could it be? Within the first 5 minutes, my opinion had completely changed. During the research lecture, our librarian would first inform us of a search engine that BYU provides, and then let us practice using it. After allowing us enough time to find some good information on our topic, she would move on to another search engine. It amazed me how precise and effective all of the search engines are that are available through BYU. The research question that I hope to answer is, "how have social media, gaming, and electronics affected teens, their habits, and their morals?" So far, I have been able to find a solid 10 sources that I know I will be able to utilize. When I first began thinking about this project, I thought it would be hard to find enough sources to fulfill the assignment, but as I found more and more sources, I realized that if the limit of allowed sources was 6-8, I was going to have a lot of trouble choosing which ones to use. Learning the process of completing an annotated bibliography has been very beneficial to me, and I'm excited to read each of my sources in depth.
Another thing I feel that is important to take note of is that my research topic changed as I did research. When I first walked into the library session, I wanted to research the "effects of electronics on teens and their finances." Immediately after the first source I found on the academic database at BYU, I decided to change my topic because it wasn't specific enough, and it wasn't very clear. After changing my research topic to how "social media, gaming, and electronics affect teens, their habits, and their morals," I was able to find all the sources I needed. Previously, I stated that keeping my sources within the limit of 6-8 would be hard. After talking with my professor, I found out that I can have up to 20 sources; knowing this, I will be able to find even more evidence to support my research argument than I had previously expected.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Book of Mormon

In my Book of Mormon class, we were given the assignment to pick a gospel question that has been troubling us and then through research, find evidence that answers our question. I began my research in the scriptures but as I realized that I needed more information, I decided to take my search to the internet. I was able to find many different articles and books that addressed my topic. Through this experience, I've realized that in some ways media makes it possible for me to gather more information than historic books would. Although many people believe that media has corrupted and done a disservice to all humans, I can now see how it has really helped us out. I was able to gather a wider and more specific collection of sources by using the internet than I would have if I had tried to stick solely to books. This just goes to show that the media has really benefited the distribution of information.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Randall K. Bennett

General Conference has always been a great time for me to reflect my spiritual and personal progression. In this last General Conference session, on Sunday afternoon, I had the opportunity to go to the Conference Center and actually watch the session in person. My favorite speaker, Randall K. Bennett, uses imagery, juxtaposition, and anaphora to motivate his audience to heed warnings and pursue eternal life.

Painting a picture of his experience of not heeding the warnings of a rip current, Bennett explains that he did not listen to the warnings, even though he had seen the signs. He describes the scene in such a way that makes us, his audience, feel that we were there. Doing so increases our understanding and trust in him, giving him the ability to teach us a lesson. He states that a lifeguard on duty had seen him enter the water, knew that he would drift seaward, and decided to wait out where the current stopped so that he could save him. Bennett extends his gratitude, comparing this situation to that of our Heavenly Father. Our Father knows the mistakes that we will make and will not interfere. Rather, he will be there when we call for "help" so that he can save us from our sins.

Many times throughout his talk, Randall K. Bennett uses juxtaposition in order to make certain words stand out. Stating that we "cannot make eternal decisions without eternal consequences," he purposely utilizes the word eternal to define two contradicting subjects. Doing so, he helps us understand that the important eternal decisions that we make will play largely into the eternal consequences that we receive. Avoiding bad consequences only comes by making good decisions.

Near the end of his talk, Bennett states that "we all face adversity. We all have temptations. We all make mistakes." Displaying rhetoric here through the use of an anaphora, he is able to unify his audience into one large group to help us understand that no one is perfect. After doing so, he is able to instruct us on ways that we can improve and make mistakes less often. Without using rhetorical devices throughout his talk, Randall K. Bennett would have had a lot more trouble trying to get his message across. Rhetoric helped him earn trust, keep his audience interested, and portray his message by engaging his audience in the problem at hand: eternal decisions.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Adversity

Overcoming adversity is something that we all face daily. I decided to attend my first Tuesday morning devotional as a student here at BYU and really learned some interesting stuff. The devotional was about facing our adversities and fighting through them, understanding along the way why we have our adversities and trying to make the best of them. Every trial or struggle we have in our lives is for a reason and is put in our lives to make us stronger. The tough part about adversity is being able to see the good in it and making the best of it, but I understand that as we try to make the best of bad situations, we will be blessed. The ability to do such is something I can gain over time, but only if I continue to work at it. I must do my part by putting in all my effort and staying optimistic and faithful in our God. I know that he has a plan for me, and I'm thankful for the adversity I've faced throughout my life.

Monday, September 26, 2011

"Checkers"

Given by Richard M. Nixon, "Checkers" is a convincing speech in which he takes an accusation made towards him, accepts it, and then turns immorality into good. Because of his rhetoric, Nixon is able to convince his audience, America, that the wrong he has committed is actually understandable and justifiable. Without using certain specific tools in his speech, he never would have been able to earn back America's trust. Because it was so amazing to me how he was able to take a bad thing and flip it around into an opportunity for him to receive more followers and voters, I decided to use this speech as the basis for my Rhetorical Analysis. After reading this speech, I understand that much more how rhetoric can affect people. Promoting his ideas, Nixon is a great example of a respectable leader that understood the true power of the word.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Media

It always amazes me how "hip" and knowledgeable the prophets and apostles of our church are on the topic of electronics and media. Typically, all teenagers and young adults believe that the older people of the population are naive to the ways of the world today. Before humbling myself enough, I used to believe the same; there was no way that people born around the time of WWII could possibly understand the world that I'm growing up in right now. What I found is amazing! Quite honestly, the leaders of our church have kept up with the constant sprint of new inventions in our society. Not only that, they also have a deep, interesting, and proactive view on how to deal with media. Now whenever the prophet or apostles have something to say about media, I pay attention. I know that what they have to say is inspired--intriguing at the least.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Rhetoric

Rhetorical devices are everywhere. It had never occurred to me that the prophets and apostles of my church, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, would use rhetorical devices in their talks also. This week has been an eye opener for me; I always thought that rhetorical devices were used by liars that wanted to persuade their audience that what is bad is actually good. In this sense, I considered rhetoric to be a minor form of evil that the devil himself would use in order to persuade us to do what is wrong. In my writing class this week, I learned that even the good things in history that have brought about benefits to society were only carried out because of leaders that knew how to use rhetoric. In this way, rhetorical devices can be used for good. As we discussed in class ways in which rhetoric is used, someone suggested that the leaders of our church utilize these persuasive techniques in General Conference in order to portray their thoughts. I now understand that rhetoric is used as a base for persuading, whatever the cause or intent may be.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

"Preparation Precedes Power"

Last Christmas, my brother who is currently serving a mission in Mexico City sent me a copy of "Preparation Precedes Power" by Randy L. Bott. I've always loved reading but church gospel books didn't seem to interest me. On the recommendation that this book helped prepare my brother more than anything for his mission, I decided to give it a try. I want to take the reading seriously so I pick three things out of the book that I can work on every week. I plan on beginning the mission paper process soon so preparing myself for the mission is always on the forefront of my mind. Here are three things that I know will help you keep the spirit throughout the day just like they did for me:

1. Be thankful for everything. Take nothing for granted. Everything you are given is an extra blessing.

2. Become knowledgeable in the gospel. We are our Lord's servants, and as such we need to be prepared to spread the gospel whenever we are asked questions.

3. Let confrontation go; do not retaliate. Be understanding of the confronter, no matter how frustrating the situation is.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

"Child of God"- Elder Eyring

I'm not one to enjoy church talks about the same reoccurring topics such as paying your tithing, magnifying your calling, and going to church, but Elder Eyring's knowledge and guidance in "Child of God" was enough to keep me interested. Focusing on five characteristics that every child of God should have, he lays out a map for us of how to get there. These five essential traits consist of working hard, welcoming feedback, expecting resistance, keeping commitments, and helping others. One of the first things we must do to adapt these characteristics is to humble ourselves. We are all children of God, not one of us is more special than the other in his eyes. All of the counsel Eyring gives is applicable to me directly in my education. Part of working hard in school is the ability to welcome critical feedback and then adjust myself according to the comments I receive. Also, I must expect resistance and be able to help others as I work to overcome those challenges. Lastly, keeping commitments that I make throughout college is important in defining who I become in the future.